A Simple Kind of Life

"she wears me out!" no really... there are ALOT of people i know, and even don't know, that seriously wear me out, just by watching them or being around them. they constantly have to be moving around, doing something, going somewhere, cleaning something, saying something, being around people, telling people what to do, building something, tearing down something, watching something, reading something, writing something, buying something, selling something.... get what i'm sayin?
i am so glad i'm not one of these people. i can sit. quietly. i may wonder about what i'm gonna do later, or what i need to do, or what's for dinner... but the thought passes and i'm back to here... i can sit and read for hours at a time, and i can sit and do nothing, if i want to. granted, it's rare with my 3 kiddos, but that's not the point. i love staying home, i love those rare moments alone to just... sit. doing things, having a full planner doesn't make me feel important. talking on the phone doesn't make me feel better about myself. i can go hours without talking, if the opportunity arises...
i love my simple life... though it looks boring from the outside, i couldn't ask for more... well, besides a trip to Hawaii... to do nothing there, too.......

...when in Rome...

so, i'm reading this book, Beyond Opinion by Ravi Zacharias. it's a christian apologetics book, and it addresses all of the opposing worldviews that are against christianity.. ok... i guess i could have just called it a christian apologetics book and left it at that... anyway, if you don't want to think about things, don't read it. ... just sayin...

so, i thought about things...

we want our cake, and we want to eat it too.. we tend to want God to intervene on the bad things in our lives... why doesn't He stop the evil? why does He let bad things happen? if He would just do something about it!! and then... at the same time... we DON'T want Him to control our lives. we don't want to be puppets!! we want to be able to make our own choices.. to have a "free will" to choose... He probably thinks we are one crayola short... missin a few nuts and bolts.. we pray, "Dear Lord, please give me money... please give me a new car... please don't let me keep screwing things up... " but at the same time, we don't want Him to force His will on us..  am i making sense?

"there is none good, no not one"... we think, i'm basically "good".. i feed my kids (most of the time), i'm honest (most of the time) i don't hate my neighbor (most of the time)... but, how do we know what "good" is? what is our comparison point? yeah, most of us are "good" compared to the nut job across the street who abuses his family, or steals, or cheats... but this isn't our measuring stick.. how do we know what "good" is? God is good. Jesus told us that... so, if we hold our "goodness" up to His "goodness"... how does it compare? i know, right? God's "goodness" is perfect, unable to sin, Holy, Holy, Holy... so then, if we look at it that way, compared to Him... we may not make the cut... we may get voted off the island... thank God, for changing the requirements... because if it were up to me, and my choices, and my natural ability to screw everything up... i would be saying ... "no stairway!! denied!!!"...

...ninja assassin...not just a clever name...

so, halfway through the movie, i look at scott and say, "ohhh.... the guy kills ninja's.... i thought he was just a really good assassin...."

i gave up on the exercise/yoga thing for now... my kids won't allow it.. i know, right? but i thought it was a good enough excuse to get by...

i have been reading these amazing books on reformed theology, christian apologetics, predestination, calvinism, preterism... yes, i've been busy... i guess my above excuse as to why i don't have time to exercise just lost it's mojo...

i started getting interested in apologetics on accident. less than 2 years ago, i picked up Lee Strobel's book, A Case For Christ, and i've been hooked on the subject ever since. a few months ago, a friend introduced me to the rest of the above mentioned topics.. while i have been really enjoying learning about it, at the same time, i 'm kinda pissed off that i never heard about it before... better late than never, i guess...

so now i'm trying to find apologetics books for my kids. i didn't even know what an athiest was until high school, but times have changed. they have already realized that not everyone believes the same as they do, and i want them to be able to at all times, give reason as to why they believe and trust in God. maybe it will make their faith stronger.. i just want them to know that they know that they know, you know? ...heh...